A 26-year-old young man has narrated his ordeal with homosexuality.
"When I was 14 and had completed JHS, I came across a disc in my Dad's wardrobe and I decided to watch it. I inserted the disc and it was a pornographic disc but I watched because I was naive. I got indulged in masturbation and did it until I was 16 in SHS, where I was introduced to homosexuality by a friend.
He was a friend I did everything with because we reported the same day, same room and shared a 2 in 1 bed.
This is how it all happened, one evening after preps, he couldn't find his mattress and pleaded to sleep besides me because it was getting late. We locked our lips and the feeling was so great that we took turns to masturbate each other. The following morning, I felt uncomfortable and so didn't speak to each other but the act continued when night came. This time, he asked to penetrate me to which I agreed. We were so fearless that it happened continuously for sometime in a dormitory with almost 60 people.
We didn't talk about it nor talk to each other in the morning as we used to do before, but didn't miss a night of our sezuál adventures.
He left the school before completion but I completed. All this while I was deep into the act of masturbation and serious watching of porn. I didn't do well with my results so I started working. I began having a strong urge for boys but I feared that I will be beaten so I had to succumb to my fears. Then i came across an app on playstore that allows me to connect gays within my vicinity which is Kumasi.
When the urge is so high, I just login and connect with nearby guys for a hookup. Yes, a hookup because some of them took money. Sometimes in a guesthouse or their residence because I promised never to send any of them to my house. Intermittently, I will do that and regret. It diminished my confidence, relationships with family and friends and made me a worse person but I couldn't stop although I could go a year without engaging in the act.
In 2018, I decided to stop so I went in for a relationship with a lady but it was for only a year to which I returned to the old me. I will masturbate and will not be okay then go online to look for a guy and visit. It is destroying my life and I don't know who to open up to. I will stop for a while and go back to masturbating and then hookup. I do not have any health implications from the act tho but I want to stop this.
I'm 26 still living in my parents house just as my younger siblings are, being fed and watered by them to which I feel embarrassed. I'm jobless and I have nothing to my name at my age compared to my mates from primary and high school. Nothing seems to be working for me and I thinking of having to end it all.
Talk about prayer, I am a firm believer in prayer but I think it doesn't work for me. I have decided to stay away from those acts by prayer and fasting but I get back into it after months. Lent began on March 3, and I made a strong vow to overcome those deeds, 18 days into it I have masturbated twice and had an affair with a guy once.
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