I'm somewhere between 50-60 pounds down since November. It's been a slow, but rewarding journey.
I've discovered I really love walking. It gets me out of the house and I can listen to whatever podcast or book I want without interruption. I have made new animal friends and that alone makes it worth it. Johny Ray also really loves it. He likes to stare at people and be cute. I'm hoping to get into free weights at some point, but for now walking is enough.
I discovered because I have been stuck in the house so much since 2020, I have developed a sun sensitivity. At least, that is what I think it is. That is not so fun, but it is interesting! So now I am trying to make my skin love the sun again.
I've discovered that food shouldn't be my comfort, but that's really hard. That's a day by day thing.
I have stopped drinking almost completely. I was using it as a crutch for my grief about Pappy passing, my post partum depression, and just general life stuff that 2021 threw at me. Alcohol and food were both just something that brought me comfort. It wasn't a healthy relationship and I had to rethink everything.
Derrick and I are growing stronger(ish). We still have been our issues. Lots of couples do. I am a anxiety ridden wreck. He is a people pleaser. We are working on ourselves and our marriage. Anyone who says love is easy is kidding themselves. Love is making selfless sacrifices and that's hard.
This is my truth. I am broken. I will probably always be a bit of a mess. At the end of the day, my children know I love them. My life is blessing. I am so happy that tiny changes turn into big ones.
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