Hi admi, please I want you to hide my identity in this post. Thank you
I have been in a relationship with a man of God (Pastor) for about 5yrs now who is 18yrs older than me. I don't know if I should continue or break up with this chains I have put myself into, please no insult but I need advice.
This is my story, I accepted his proposal when I had a serious break up with my fiancé( because of chronic cheating)so I taught I was safe in the arms of a man of God because I taught he didn't have anyone 6months down the line I got to know that he had a woman close to his age that he was dating i.e. a woman working and has it all and even provides for him whilst I am graduate searching for a job. But the there was a long distance between them so that makes the woman not come to him all the time and even if she'll come it's when my man says so. One day we had a misunderstanding and he told me if i get someone I should take because he can't move with me. So he called the woman to come to his place whilst I was still staying with him. She came and spent days there with me, my man and another lady my man's ex living with us. So what happened was that they quarrelled I don't know the cause and the lady insulted him badly that it hurted him so he broke up with the lady and came back to me to say sorry and that he wants me back I accepted because I loved him and didn't have anywhere to go by that time.
Now that lady's story is over but the ex is my problem now. He claims to be over with her but from what I am seeing I still think they're having an affair. The last time I complained about how am not comfortable with their movement he got angry and told me stupid things. So I decided not talk about it again but it's killing me inside. I want to marry but it seems he's not ready because the last time we quarrelled he said that I do not qualify to be a wife, every little thing he gets angry then I apologise. He's the type that when he talks I should keep quite and listen I don't have to talk back or explain when ever he insults me I keep mute because if I talk back I don't respect him.
Right now people makes moves on me some want marry me but I don't respond to their proposal because I feel I might be ungrateful to him if I accept someone and move on. So right now I don't know if I should move or wait for a miracle to happen between us.
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