Please keep me anonymous
There’s something bothering me that I want to share here and I'm a bit confused too
The thing is I'm a female and I really don't want to say I'm into girls or anything of that sort but I don't feel anything at all when I have s*x with guys
This thing started when I was 12
I had really strict parents so I wasn't allowed to go out not to talk of being in a relationship with a guy
The area where I lived too the boys there were not many so I had so many female friends and we used to do some naughty stuff like fingering and kissing
And one time me and one of the girls took things a little far and we tried scissoring and I actually liked it so it kept happening but it got to a point I wasn't comfortable doing that anymore because it was against society
All this happened during my primary and jhs time
So ff we were about to write BECE and I met this guy who showed interest in me and I liked him too so we started dating and we had sex
But I didn't like anything about it because I was used to the girl to girl stuff and l've been with a lot of guys but I still don't feel anything
I have reached orgasm once in my whole life and it was with a girl that I met recently and it happened just last month on the 31st and im feeling really guilty and confused cause I have a boyfriend
I don't want to accept  that I'm bi or lesbian and I don't want hurt my boyfriend too
The girl is out of the picture now but
I'm feeling guilty
I've tried everything to get these lesbian stuff out of my head but it's just not possible
I've been to counselors for counseling and I've been praying too but it's just not working
I really don’t know what to do I’m confused
I literally tell my boyfriend how I want it and everything when we’re doing it but I still don’t feel anything
Please help a sister

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