I just couldn't concentrate! That's not what's bothering me!
The thought if Brittany filled my mind! Everything that concerns me revolves around her!
Since the incident yesterday evening, I have been avoiding her like a plague!
I am sure she will notice it too ! Avoiding her was the only thing I could think of, I thought it was going to let me forget about her for the main time but I guess I am lying to myself!
That isn't working!
Did you believe she comes in my dreams too? When I eat I think of her, sleep, sit, lie, everything!
I have been wasting lots of papers since in writing a presentation!
When I print it out, I see I wrote jargons. If not for the help of Karen this morning, my meeting with Mr Kings could have been effortless because of my inability to concentrate!
My mind was occupied with something else other than work and winning contracts !
My mind was home while I am at work !
I admit I love Brittany but I am no match for her!
That's what's scaring me from making a move!
What if I confess my feelings for her and she angrily throws me out of her house, deny me of my job and her company too?
That's what my family and I depend on! How do we survive without her ? Like my salary!
I don't wanna do anything that I will regret later!
I love my job so much as it stands to be my only source of livelihood!
I have to keep my feelings to myself to avoid the worst happening!
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" You are very stupid did you know that?" Carl said and I shot him a glare!
Did I come here just to be insulted? I just told him what has been bothering me and all he have to do is to insult me?
" Why the insult?" I asked
" seriously? You love her and you chose to keep it to yourself? Why are you letting your fears take the best part of you? "
He said and I kept mute! He's not in my shoe so he wouldn't understand!
" And with my observations so far, I am 99.9% sure she loves you too. She just want you to make the first move Damien, don't you get it?"
Huh?
Did she truly love me? Carl isn't the first person that's saying this, I over heard her Mum the other day!
" Stop being childish, forget she's your boss dude. Love doesn't mean you have to be superior!
" Believe me, she won't turn you down that's because she loves you. Grab her and stop being afraid like an idiot "
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?...Hilda ...?
It came again! The pain, this time it worsen.
I felt like a very sharop knife was cutting me in between my legs!
My body became sweaty! Tears welled up my eyes!
My body tensed up, my area tightened! My abdomen began tingling!
God! Is this how I am going to die? I wish Damien didn't lock me in this godforsaken room, I could have just gone to have any man I see in sight!
The pain increased! It came to it peak were I couldn't bear it anymore!
I puked all over the bed clutching tight to my stomach and my legs on each other as I tried to suppress the addiction but it was in vain!
It didn't work! Nothing is working! What do I do?
I am dying! This thing is killing me slowly
The door opened and Damien came in! Ah!
" Da... Damien, p.. please! Help me this once, I need you please " I cried in pain!
All he could do was to smirk!
" I can see you are enjoying yourself Hilda, how's the pain? Medium, mini or worse? " He asked grinning!
I couldn't reply! I don't even know how to reply that!
What I am going through is more than just that .
" D... Damien please" I pleaded in tears
" I can't stoop so low to f*"k a bitch like you Hilda, I do rather die !"
Ah ! I knew he wasn't going to agree! He wouldn't dirty himself with a beast like me!
" O.. okay, please let me go I beg you please"
" That's not possible you know, but like you know too, I am not heartless. I am going to get you cured not because I feel any sympathy for you but because I did it so that you could have a taste of what you did to Brittany"
Huh? Cure? There's a cure for it? He found the cure ?
I stared keenly at him as he brought out some drugs and handed it to me with a bottled water !
Huh?
" Take it, it will let the pain go away and you will become your normal self again plus I will send in a doctor to check on you tomorrow "
I glanced at him then at the drugs in my hand! Should I trust him? Or is he trying to get back at me for what I did to Brittany?
What if it's those drugs I gave her that worsen her addiction?
" I am not as wicked as you are Hilda, stop thinking twice and take this sh*t I have lots of things to do "
I nervously took the drugs in my mouth washing it down with water!
I stayed mute for about five minutes and truth to his words, the pain went away! I wasn't feeling any pain anymore!
" I told you! So here is your meal, have a good night Hilda " he said stood up and left!
I hastily opened the flask and saw it was pasta!
Without no warning, I began devouring it hungrily!
Good thing he remembered I have to eat!
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?..... Brittany.......?
" Have you admitted that you love him?" Mum asked and I nodded shyly!
I think I love him, I can't deny the feeling anymore!
I have tried pushing it away but it's gets stronger each passing day!
I love Damien! I really do!
" Very good! I am glad you accepted the fact " she said excitedly!
Why's she excited now? I am really bothered by something!
I can't possibly confess my love to him, it might sounds stupid!
I have been seeing him as a saviour and a friend which I don't want anything to ruin. Not my confessions!
My mood changed into a sour one as many thoughts ran through my mind!
" What's wrong hunny?" Mum asked!
She's the only one I have now and can confide in!
Hilda could have been perfect but her number hasn't been reachable!
I just hope she's fine! I will see her immediately my treatments are over! That's in the next one month!
How time flies! I am now very free with the addiction!
I feel so free like a bird ! My addiction is gone!
Even if I didn't complete this treatment! I am fine already but I just have to!
All thanks to Damien, he changed my life forever!
" I am bothered Mum "
" About what?"
" W..what if he doesn't like me?" I said! Nothing scares me more than getting to know that Damien doesn't have a thing for me!
Mum chuckled! This isn't funny at all!
" I know he do Britt, he's just scared to tell you! You know it sounds off falling for your boss right?"
He do? Let him just say it please! I don't care about any standard or class! I love him for him!
" H..how sure are you Mum?"
" Very sure! Okay, let's do something that will make him confess that he loves you "
My head snapped at her! Mum can mischievous at times!
" What?"
" My perfect plan " she winked at me dragging me into her room .
Few minutes later....
" Are you sure this I going to work Mum?" I asked nervously glancing through the window, he just arrived!
" Don't you trust your mother anymore? It will work hunny , just do as I say. You can act perfectly right?" She asked and I nodded
" Then get to it already baby, he's here " she said and scurried away.
Gosh! I hope this works!
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?....Damien.....?
Sh*t! I feel so tired and worked up! This few weeks , work haven't been easy! There's a lot of work to do in the office!
More than five contracts have been awarded to us in just this week that we have to work in before next week!
I entered into the living room heading straight to my room but something caught my attention!
" Brittany!"
I called as I rushed to her in fright!
She was lying unconscious on the floor!
What happened to her?
" Wake up Brittany " I said tapping her but she wouldn't wake up!
I raised her hand and it fell back on the floor!
What's happening? Did her addiction come back? But Carl said she's free already right?
" B... Brittany please wake up " I said again sweating profusely!
I checked her pulse and.... She wasn't breathing!
Noooo!
" B... Brittany please, don't leave me please. You can't leave me wake up "
Tears formed in my eyes as it poured down freely!
I can't loose her! I can't!
" Wake up please, when you do, I promise to tell you that I love you "
" I love you Brittany, please wake up for me "
" I can't loose you, not when I met and fell in love with you. Just wake up and I will tell you over and over again how I fell for your simplicity and beauty "
" Okay! I should take you to the hospital, nothing must happen to you "
" Stay strong for my love for you Britt..."
I stopped crying immediately as my eyes snapped opened as I felt someone wiping away my tears!
" Oh my goodness! Br...."
She stood up and began laughing calling out to mum!
" You can cry this well Damien?" She asked!
wait! I..I thought s..she was unconscious right?
Mum came out of nowhere and they high-fived .
W.. what's happening?
" I told you he was gonna confess his love for you baby "
That was when it down on me that I was tricked!
God! Open the ground already let it swallow me!....
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